As Golbez says, Let us Start...

"Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart,
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain,
Melodies of life - love's lost refrain.

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why.
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told ?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds - forever and beyond.

So far and away, see the birds as it flies by.
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings.
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me ?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leave me behind ?

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying bird - forever and on.

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of life,
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember."

Hum... Here I go. After much pushing by a few friends and probably just a good need for a personal outlet, I've decided to give this whole blogging thing a shot. I don't know how consistent or how profound I'll be in this, but we'll see as time passes...

As most of you know, I am somewhat of an, er, unique individual. The title of this blog I chose to be "The Melodies of Life". It's the ending song of Final Fantasy IX (yes, I will have multiple nerd references, but they'll tie in somehow) and I posted the lyrics above. It's a very peaceful song and it's easy to find on youtube if anyone cares. For some reason, this song came to mind the past week and just sorta stuck out. It has somewhat sad lyrics with a happy melody that just always seemed so touching to listen to...

Well, with this being a blog and all, I guess I'll start catching up for those that I haven't talked to for a while/just haven't told yet. I've got three classes this quarter at UCLA again since the fourth one filled up before I could get in. But, the classes I have are Introduction to Linguistics (Ling. 1), the Philosophy of Science (Phil 8), and Psychological Statistics (Psych 100A). All these classes are pretty heavy conceptually, but that's something I tend to like more than just hardcore memorization and application like art history last quarter (man, that was a tough class...). Since these classes seem to be somewhat easier for me, I've been trying to work more. Yes, I do have a job now, which is kinda weird to think about. But, I work for ASUCLA Event Services. We set up chairs and tables for events, watch over the events, then tear everything down and set up for the next event. Even though it sounds kinda simple, it's actually a job that I really enjoy. It's almost like all the community service I did back in high school, except I actually get paid for it...

A lot of things have come up on to my plate I guess. One of the main things that I am trying to do is actually get promoted at work. Two of my good friends have been promoted, and I am somewhat in the same boat, so I'm hoping I'll be able to follow their lead. I've work around 55 hours these past two weeks, which is quite a bit for me. I'm hoping that makes a good impression with my bosses though haha. It's sometimes hard to work a lot, though, due to so many other commitments. Bible Study, CCM, Church, and other activities are things that I value greatly, yet make it hard to compete work-wise sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret these things, I'm just pointing out that I don't work as much due to these commitments... Aw well, I guess it just make me somewhat of a better time manager.

I've been able to keep up with school somehow... Although the readings are kinda dense, but just taken gradually I seem to be able understand them mostly, so that's a good sign. Yet, even though I bet I'm not the only one, I always feel as if there is more I need to do. This isn't only like, my goodness I should read more/do more homework, even though this is the most prevalent feeling. But, I also feel like I've lost somewhat of what I did back in high school...

If you look at my activities, you can probably easily notice that I've been trying to do a lot more physically. Some days I just literally am running around with class, work, and then homework. I feel as if I don't think enough anymore... Back in high school, I used to spend hours into the night just literally talking with people like Chris and Timmy, to name a few. Also, I felt like that I could talk to others and be able to help them with the problems that had arisen in their lives... But now, I feel like this aspect of me has been placed away... The thinking that I had once used to so prevalently define myself just seems to be another thing I know, but it's not as all encompassing as it was before... I guess it just makes me feel like I'm doing less to help people with their lives, even if I try to physically. It's just not the same...

I don't know, I've been told that I've been downplaying myself in this aspect. Yet, I don't feel the sense of Big Brotherness (haha 1984 pun) that I once had before. I know that I am supposed to move on, esp. since UCLA is a new environment, yet helping people is one of the things that helped me to feel as if I'm actually doing something in the world to make a difference. The monotony of my life just seems to be an endless routine with no real difference occurring. I just sometimes wonder what, or even if, I am doing to make a difference anymore...

Complacency in life is never something that I have viewed that favorably. Being comfortable and content, sure, but I still believe in being able to try something to make a difference. Iono why this is something that is so big to me, but it just seems to be standing out in my head as more and more days pass by here... Hum, odd...

Wow, I seem to have written a lot more than I thought I would. Funny how time seems to fly when writing. I guess I'll end this post on somewhat of a depressing but meditative note, and hopefully this will get me to think more, if not others as well... Hum, life is just so strange some days...